Saturday, July 30, 2011

He leaves 
As soon as she wakes up 
Leaving her to fend for herself 
He crippled her mind 
How he treated her 
I don't see how she's taken it for this long 
She wants to leave 
But really, she just wants him to care 
Like he used to 
And she's holding on 
Waiting for him to change 
Her whole life based around the idea 
Of him holding her hand 
And saying I love you one more time 

Monday, November 8, 2010

Why do you judge so quickly? 
Not even a minute 
That's how long you've known me 
You think you understand 
Because you've seen the surface 
But my water is far from shallow 
You're just too afraid to dive 
Afraid you'll be trapped 
By the tide 
But I won't let you drown 
No, I swear I won't 
So suck it up 
Swallow your insecurities 
And give me a chance 
I won't let you down 
Oh no, I won't let you drown  

Sunday, November 7, 2010

You say you will love me forever. 
But forevers not something you can't truely guarente, unless of course you can see into eternity. 
In honesty, forever doesn't matter to me. 
And I don't want a contract.  
And I don't want you bound. 
Just love me for the moment. 
Just love me now.  
I will not take for granted our time spent together in this lifetime. 
I will cherish every second. 
And when we part, if we part, I want to remember you as the one who made my heart happy. 
The one who chased away the dark. 
The one who tackled my silly fears with ease. 
And I'm not asking for a contract. 
And I don't want you bound.  
Just love me for the moment. 
Just love me now. 
That's all I'm asking for. 
That's all I want. 
So just love me for the moment. 
Just love me now. 
I refuse to conform to the pale colored houses 
How much do you know about living?
Surely not as much as you pretend to 
You reside in your normailty 
You're like everyobody else 
Never questioning, just following 
How is that working out for you? 
Are you really as happy as you seem? 
Or is that all an act too? 
Living as you do, I couldn't take it 
So I will pick up a brush 
And I will paint my house all the colors of expression  
I've only seen this once before 
On the bathroom floor 
When I opened the door  
He was only twenty-four 
I thought of the day 
When I heard him say
What I never in a million years expected him to say 
"What's the point of living? I can't do this anymore!" 
And in that moment I could tell his heart tore 
I didn't know what to do
So I kept my mouth shut and looked down at my shoe 
I was stupid and young
I could have stopped him if I wouldn't have just kept my tongue 
But he's gone now 
And I made my brother a silent vow 
That I'd live my life the way he didn't know how 
But now my hands are shaking 
And my eyes are aching   
As I take in the scene before me 
I can't believe what I see 
The girl is staring back at me 
A single tear falls from her eye 
And I can see her life passing by 
As she waits to die 

The girl closes her eyes, and to my reflection, I whisper an overdue goodbye.  
She makes you love what you hate 
And hate what you love 
She's everything you don't want 
But she's what you have to have 
But can't you see 
That I love what you love 
And that I love you 
And that you could love me too 
It's right there 
Right in front of you're face 
But you keep chasing the girl that'll never want you  
You make me hate what I love 
And love what I hate  
You make the corners of my mouth fall 
You make my heart cry 
My eyes, too 
Even though it's right there 
Right in front of my face 
But I just can't see 
That I keep chasing the boy that'll never want me   
This day, you've made it ever so hard 
What am I supposed to do, buy you a card? 
"Happy Mothers Day, you've always been there for me!" 
No, that's not it 
"Happy Mothers Day Mom, all you've done is strung me along!" 
Ha, hey that does kinda fit 
We've never had a normal Mothers Day, have we Mom?    
In all my years 
Though they may count low 
They are all I know 
You may think I'm bashing 
Oh, to the contrary 
I am provoking 
I am asking you to take up for yourself 
To tell me you love me 
To tell me you DID care 
Tell me, mom 
Tell me 
Tell me I'm wrong